Convenience Of Dark Flowers

Flowers are beautiful in their own right, I love them so much in there alive state. This is why I tell people to never buy me flowers, because I prefer them in soil growing and alive outside. The flower above was actually from a convenience store, which is unfortunate, because it will die sooner rather than later. So I captured its beauty while I could, and now it can live on forever. The black and white aspect gives the photograph so many different elements of shading and darkness, which is the point. The darker and depressing I can make the photo the better I feel emotionally, because I can put all that energy into my art instead of holding onto all that mess.

I do believe that the flowers you see in the above photo was taken in the same location, just a couple months earlier, and warmer. Darklight is always present in most or all of my photography, here it is in extreme amounts. I needed to soften the picture to make it just so, to give it that wonderful feeling I get when it reaches the done and post point. Ta-da!!! I also wanted to show that not all things to do with flowers are used in happy events in our lives. Many times they are used to explain a very serious period in that persons life, or something sad, like a funeral. Personally I use flowers to show what my mind looks like most of the time. My mind looks like most of my photography most of the time. The lightness is there, but most of the time there is sadness and unrest.

Caught this one when I was one my way home, actually it was just outside my house. The depth of field shows the focus I had on just the plant alone, but there is an awareness of the rest that's in view just behind. That is the fun with macro photography, you can bring this right into focus and blur out the unwanted. What made this picture more interesting to me, is that I used my smartphone to take this shot and didn't edit it that much really. I placed myself close enough to the flower that I could create the same effect that most expensive cameras can do. 

In fact all the picture that were placed in this post, had been taken with my smartphone and edited the same way. More convenience store flowers above. The original above shot looked more vibrant and lighter, but that is not what I was trying to say here. I was showing that I'm not well, I suffer from major depression and anxiety, and it can eat you alive if you let it. This is why I decided to start taking pictures and create art all the time, so that I have a place to vent everything that happens in my life. This is also why I started writing again, to get all this anger and sadness, this darklight, out in the open and not deep inside me where it festers and becomes an evil monster.