Darklight Windows

If you really want to know what depression looks like, this would be it. There is light, you can almost feel it. Look right there on the wall. However, everything else that surrounds it is darkness, even myself. I decided one day that I was going to take this self portrait to show how I really felt during moments of bad bouts of depression. Here it is folks. Instead of making this a bad thing, I made it into art instead. Darklight at its best. This is mostly what I see when the darkness takes hold. Even medication can't prevent it completely, it just helps level things off. For that matter, I'm glad the medication doesn't space me out, that way I'm still in touch with reality.

The window we have here is actually sitting on an abandoned motel in Niagara Falls. I did take this last summer upon my visit there. For some reason I have to go to this motel every time, I need to see if it has changed any since the last time. I peeked into this window and all I could see was a bathroom with peeling paint, smelly mold and broken tiles. I wanted to go in, I craved the abandoned. Of course, I didn't get in, so I photoged the thing to death. I did get into the kitchen area of the main hall, in which I will need to edit one day. The broken glass was perfect in all ways of the imperfect that this is. If that made sense. I never claimed to make sense.

Look a hidden video, A New Drug, by Digitalism. I was listening to it as I was typing, came on Itunes.

I've always been obsessed with this building on Dupont Street. It looks transparent. I know that it is a storage for the artsy store beside it, but I still see it as being a lone building. Its own characteristics, and broken glass. Everyday on the way home I look for it, a standard part. On this particular day of photo fun, I was standing right there (obviously). The reflection is what made me take the shot, however it needed more, an HDR filter. That was it, my vision, in photo form. Welcome to my mind!!